And yet another day passes. Like beads on a string with no knot at the end.
Today was OK. Just OK. The beginning of the day was an emotionally grey day. Depression and anxiety sat beside me on the couch. Actually, I think they were sitting on my lap. But no matter, I went to see my counselor and felt better after. She mentioned that I should get my adrenals checked so I came home and looked up information. It seems I am showing all the signs of adrenal fatigue except for one. Though I don't need a checklist to know that my adrenals are shot. Having a breakdown like I did pretty much tells me my adrenals are screwed. There is a reason why I am constantly feeling on edge and can't seem to break the cycle. The problem is from what I read it takes two years to start to feel better on the recommended diet. Two years? I am not looking for a quick fix but two years? *sigh* I guess I should go to my Naturopath and find out more about it.
Oh, I did have chocolate the other night. I needed no encouragement! I just may even have more tonight.
That's all I have for today. Holding out hope that tomorrow will be a little better than today.
I'm too scared to webmd it, what's the story of adrenals.
ReplyDeleteIt's progress - but so is the movement of a glacier. It's very, very slow! But it is in the right direction. And it will build momentum.
ReplyDeleteI'm pleased your counsellor could help.
I'll check out the adrenal thing. I have no idea what the symptoms are.
You may have mentioned this but have you had your hormones checked?
ReplyDeleteJust okay is still better than not at all okay. Hang in there, Birdie! And I'm glad you had the chocolate!!
ReplyDeleteEven feeling a little better is a step forward. One day at a time, Birdie, and before you know it, you'll be where you want to be.
ReplyDeleteBirdie, the 40s can give highs and lows, so what you're confronting could be a combination of hormones, age, and other things.
ReplyDeleteBaby steps.
Here's hoping tomorrow is better, Birdie.
ReplyDeleteMmmmm, chocolate.
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