Can the child within my heart rise above?
And can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Oh, oh I don't know, oh I don't know
And can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Oh, oh I don't know, oh I don't know
I don't know if my heart will ever be able to rise above this. Maybe, maybe not. I do know when I look at my own reflection I will know that my mom is all around me. A big part of the who I am is because of her.
It seems things are progressing quickly and I don't know how much longer she has. She wants me there but she just cries or sleeps. She has not come to any peace with her own dying. I pray for this. I am going to talk to the doctor to see if there is something to take the edge off. Nobody should have to die like this. It is cruel.
I want to thank all of you for the comments. I actually check my blog several times a day just to read the comments because they help sustain me. Namaste.
Landslide lyrics
Songwriters: Nicks, Stevie;
Took this love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Till the landslide brought me down
Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
And can I sail through the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Oh oh I don't know, oh I don't know
Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older I'm getting older too
Yes I'm getting older too, so
I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I, I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too oh yes
I'm getting older too
So, take this love, take it down
Oh if you climb a mountain and you turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring you down, down
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down
Well well, the landslide will bring you down
I'm sorry your mother is struggling so. I wish her peace of mind and of heart when her time comes. And I wish you the strength to cope.
ReplyDeleteHello Birdie. I am glad you said that about comments here helping a little. I wasn't sure. I read the post yesterday too and loved hearing about your Mum and the way she has lived her life, full of friendships and love. I hope that seeing her choir helped a little maybe just for that time they were there. I'm so sorry she is grieving and am hoping she is not in pain. The things I want to say to you I feel you already know and now is not the time. Those things are for later. Wishing you the strength just to cope with the now.
ReplyDeleteGo Birdie! You're amazing.
ReplyDelete(You have to explain me better how you do your cleaning stuff...)
Light and love
Isa
I wish I had words that would truly ease what you are going through. I too wish you much strength during this time.
ReplyDeletelet me start by saying that the song "landslide" is an amazing one... it goes hand in hand with "storms"
ReplyDeletei hope that your mother finds some peace... and i hope the same for you...
the seasons of our life can be such a hard struggle, but at the same time somewhat awesome.. make sense?
i cannot imagine how difficult it is to watch your mother suffering... i will keep you close in thought and prayer...
bless you
What a coincidence... just yesterday I hear Gweneth Paltrow singing that very song on Glee... I always loved that song... thank you for posting it.
ReplyDeleteI feel for you and your mother Barbara... watching her in her fragile state trying to make peace with her situation and make sense of it all is so difficult... i cannot imagine how difficult it must be for the both of you... She is having a hard time accepting the idea of not being able to physically hold you close... it is hard!
You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers... I will hold you close to my heart... send you reiki... may you have the strength to face those difficult times.
This is one of my all-time favorite songs. It got me through a crisis a long time ago.
ReplyDeleteA few years ago, my mom was very near death. She was in ICU and unconscious most of the time. When she recovered, she told me that she was aware that we were there and it helped her knowing she wasn't alone. Even if your mom isn't able to communicate it to you, your presence is a comfort to her.
I hope she'll find some peace. I'll be thinking of you.
Birdie, my thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteOh my love. Am so sorry. Fwiw sometimes there are no words as you feel like you could say it over and over and over again-Why????????
ReplyDeleteIt is just so hard and all made harder that you know your dear mum is struggling. Can you get your reiki healer to give her or send her a treatment to help her find that peace? Am happy to send her some. Would you be able to tell me her name and state yoyu are in so I can direct it more precisecly...maybe on my blog? Much love to you. Keep talking, keep praying and keep telling your mum all your happy times that you remember. Much love xxxxxx
My heart goes out to you. That is a tough situation.
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