I really overdid it today despite taking every effort to stay centered. I had to finish my Christmas shopping. It was only two stores and that part went well. When I got home I was so tired and just wanted to sleep but I had to go pick my kids up from school. When my son got in the car he told me that he and his friends were going to see The Hobbit and could I give him a ride? *arrrrrrgh!* He so seldom asks for anything but I want into instant panic mode because I knew I would be driving in the dark at rush hour. When I got home I was cranky and had a meltdown. "Why is this house always so fucking hot?", as I opened a window. Kids, husband and cats scattered to anywhere where I wasn't. Anyway, I chilled out after a while. I did take my son to the movie but it was sold out so we just drove back home again. Oh, and I bought a defective space heater at Target and had to return it, making me more grumbly. 
I did do something constructive today. Crafty, even! When reading blogs this morning I came across Morning AJ's blog she is super talented and crafty. I have even been the recipient of her talents! Anyway, she made paper chains and I thought I should give it a try so I did. I did not make them from paper but from shiny metallic gift wrap. It looks very festive on my tree! So, thank you AJ!
There was a ten minute interval today where I felt OK and even a little bit happy but I am still really struggling. I know the synapses in my brain are not connecting. I see my therapist tomorrow. Did I mention I love this woman already? More on that tomorrow. I am sleepy and need to go to bed.
And again. I thank you for stopping by my blog and loving and encouraging me. I am forever grateful. You have no idea. 

shipping container

Oh, and this is my new Winter Solstice box. I am thinking of changing the name to My Resentment Box or I Hate Almost Everything Box. For those of you that live close by you will be able to see the flames when I burn it for Winter Solstice.