I have never done this before. Well, I did when I was little and my mom coaxed me home with strawberry Quik. Today I ran away from home.
It all started this morning when I decided to take some proactive steps to try to get my life on track. First I went to the health food store and got a supplement to see if that helps until I can see my gynecologist. Through my employer I am able to get counselling so I called to set some things set up. I spoke with an intake counsellor for about 30 minutes. After the call ended I was feeling better but nervous. Anyway, I took the steps she suggested and it ended up blowing up in my face. I lost it. I ended up going to the walk-in crises counselling because I couldn't stop crying. When I got there some suggestions were made and the nurse wanted me to be admitted to crisis housing where I can relax and get my thoughts together. (A nut house?) This particular place is for people who need time to figure things out. The nurse on duty said I was obviously suffering from exhaustion. However, there are no beds tonight so I have to wait. She is going to call me tonight to make sure I am not going to harm myself. (I won't.) I made some phone calls and I am now at a home where I am safe until I can be admitted. I am so tired right now. It is hot and I need to sleep. So tired. So weary.
GOING FOR HELP IS A HUGE STEP I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR SEEKING HELP, I AM PRAYING FOR YOU FEVERISHLY TO OVER COME THIS PLEASE KNOW I AM SENDING TONS OF LOVE SUPPORT AND UNDERSTANDING THIS WILL GET BETTER...IT WILL DO NOT GIVE UP LEARN THE TOOLS YOU NEED TO FACE THIS TOUGH HURDLE HEAD ON LIKE AN OLYMPIAN (the gold medal ones preferably) HANG ON DO NOT GIVE UP AND DO NOT THINK OF IT AS "NUT HOUSE" OR CRAZY, YOU JUST NEED SOME SUPPORT . I AM HERE FOR YOU LADY <3 ((hugs)) ><>
ReplyDeleteSometimes sleep heals a lot of wounds. And so does talking to an objective third party professional. Get loads of sleep my dear Birdie and know that there are lots of healing thoughts and prayers being sent your way by people who care about you even through this seemingly impersonal medium known as the internet...which doesn't seem so impersonal right now. Take care of yourself my friend.
ReplyDeleteDon't beat yourself up over this. It sounds like a great idea to me. A small chunk of time when you don't have to worry about laundry or other's needs.. just your own.
ReplyDeleteIt may not be easy... but enjoy
It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help, glad you and your Higher Power were able to take that step. Keeping you in my prayers my friend and hope you can get some rest. Hugs
ReplyDeleteI know how this feels. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteI'm Very Proud of You my Dear Blogger Friend for taking the steps , no matter what they may be, so you can enjoy life.....
ReplyDeleteRemember this :"you are brave for seeking help, your not alone as other women may need help but not be as brave"
~~Blessings~~
I am glad that you've done this. Rest. We're thinking of you out here in bloggy world.
ReplyDeleteAdmitting you need help and asking for it is a huge step in the right direction. I so hope that the help arrives quickly.
ReplyDeleteYou have so many people in the blogosphere sending healing thoughts your way.
I'm sorry. I must have been out of the loop. I am still trying to understand what blew up on you. I am worried but I can only send you my support digitally.
ReplyDeleteI truly hope venting it and talking about it while we listen to you helps in this situation.
Don't give up. I admire you for asking help.
Huggies and Cheese,
Haopee
Be safe. Get rest. Let someone look after you for a while. Get well. xx
ReplyDeleteGood for you, Birdie! You are doing exactly the right thing! I encourage you and applaud you -- exhaustion is serious and needs to be addressed. I'm rooting for you, girl!
ReplyDeleteYou need to rest. I understand the crazy you've been dealing with, the less sleep you get the more it snowballs. Two doctors have told me that lack of sleep will make you physically ill. Be kind to yourself, rest and get better. Perimenopause and menopause is come crazy, crazy stuff. I thought puberty sucked, but this is so much harder. I'm still looking for the other side. Take care.
ReplyDeleteI hope you can rest now...and think things through...and rest some more
ReplyDeleteBirdie...I'm so behind..so not sure of what has been going on for you. I'm so sorry that all that is happening and I hope that this next step will help to heal your heart and soul. Reaching out..that will help. Do not be afraid...hold on..hold on.
ReplyDeletehugs to you,
Ellen
Have sleep. Take time. Look after yourself. Get well.
ReplyDeleteYou are not going crazy but I do think you are still reeling from your mother's passing and all that goes with it and now starting menopause. You are totally exhausted...emotionally and physically. You cannot continue down this path..you are on the right path to healing by asking someone for help. we can be encouraging and try to give good vibes in this little box of blogging but you may need just a little more than that just to start to find your way. So much better to deal with the emotions (and a little bit of the anger) by talking it out...try not to take meds to drown out the sorrow...now is the time for for you to begin your new life....starting today...honor your mom's life with a great rest of your life...you can do it!
ReplyDeleteGoing for help is the most important step, and you have taken it! Good for you. Get some rest. Take care of yourself. You are important.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was a teen I was a cutter. They put me in a "nut house" and boy was I angry, but it turned out to be the best thing for me. The therapy helped me put some order back in my life, but separating me from what was going on at home gave me some peace and sanity. So from one former "nut house" resident to a future "nut house" resident," you are going to be surprised how much of a difference getting away from things is going to help. Getting away clears your mind and helps you see things from an outside perspective. Lol at least you recognize you could use some help, they had to drag me in bleeding, kicking and punching. You are going to be fine; just wait and see. ; )
ReplyDeleteI help all is well.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you...
ReplyDeleteThinking about your, Birdie. Get all the rest and help you need.
ReplyDeleteBirdie, I'm so glad you're doing this. The first step is the hardest, as I'm discovering this month, but I'm glad I'm doing what I'm doing to help myself. No one else is going to help me, and the same goes for you... take care of Birdie first. Trust me... what you're doing is the right thing. I hope you sleep well tonight, and all nights yet to come. Sleep is such a wonderful healer... take advantage of every single moment you can get. You'll get through this, 'cause you're stronger than you think you are. You'll realize that soon, the more you do for yourself. Love you lots. xoxoxxx
ReplyDeleteI hope you're feeling better soon.
ReplyDeleteeverything ok???
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