The Black Dog jumped off the cliff and I am so grateful! (See post below.) Last night after crying and feeling empty something shifted and the burden began to lift. I am not sure why the shift because today had promised to be a very stressful day but I got through it and got through it most awesomely I might add. A co-worker has been harassing me for about 4 months now to the point that I was not wanting to go to certain work sites. She is one of those mean people that walks around with a scowl and numerous other co-workers don't like her and have noticed the way she treats me. Being passive I let it go and let it go. Long story short, we both got called in to the office today and all I did was stand strong and told the truth. At the end of the hour long meeting she was reprimanded for her behaviour and was cited for workplace bullying. I left feeling so relieved! But it was before all that happened that a peace came over me. Somewhere inside me strong Birdie must have grabbed the Black Dog by the throat.
Tonight I am so, so tired but not tired in a way that no sleep will ever cure. It is a tired of weeks of being in a funk. An, "I can breathe again" tired. Frick it feels good.
One last thing. The other day I mentioned that I was going to plant a tree in my yard in memory of my mom. Yesterday my fiancé told me he is going to buy the tree and also purchase a bench to sit beside the tree so I have a place to go and feel close to my mom. That is why I love him so much. Yep, we drive each other nutty but I don't know how I would go through life without him.
Yay! Good for you. Be proud of yourself for being strong.
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I sent you an email about the changes that are taking place! Happy to hear you took care of the co-worker..and the bench by the tree makes me smile for ya...Enjoy your weekend and check for that email..
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I am so pleased that the black dog has left you. And admire you so much for standing strong and telling the truth. Neither are easy.
ReplyDeleteAnd your lovely story about your fiance brought tears to my eyes. Love and support like that are worth the world.
whoopeeee, thank goodness the dogs gone and you are feeling so much better... as for that co worker, well that was bullying she was doing, and a good thing she's been told.. what a relief all round.. so glad you are going to have your tree and to have a seat to sit on and go to, magic, no wonder you love him!! all the best, have a great weekend now.. J
ReplyDeleteGood news about the co-worker getting sorted out. Well done strong Birdie for digging deep to stand up and speak out. No wonder you have been unable to progress with all this going on! I like the sound of the bench under the tree. That is so lovely of him to be so thoughtful and think about what will help you to feel close to your Mum. Hugs to you both. xx
ReplyDeleteDo you know how happy your mother would be? This is the best news.
ReplyDeleteGood news about the black dog and the workplace bully. Perhaps they both jumped off that cliff paw in hand.
ReplyDeleteThe special tree and meditation bench is a wonderful way to memorialize your Mom.
You had a workplace bully?! Wow! No wonder you were stressed!
ReplyDeleteThe thing about bullies is that they generally feel shitty about themselves, that's why they are mean to others. Imagine how pitiful she is.
Imagine a bench under a dogwood tree! Lovely!
I am so glad that you are feeling better! Bullies are no fun. I am glad that you had the courage to speak out!
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I'm relieved for you. Although I suffer with periods of feeling blue, I can't truly understand the level of depression and anxiety you go through. All I can do is wish you relief.
ReplyDeleteThe tree sounds like a beautiful plan.
Glad to hear it, Birdie. :)
ReplyDeleteglad you go through the workplace thing Birdie. Ahh it does feel good to breathe again, doesn't it?
ReplyDeleteI think the tree and now the bench are a wonderful idea. And sweet of the bf to offer it.
Yay Yay yeah yeah I am so glad for you to have this off your shoulders!!! HOORAY!!! The bench and tree sound perfect to have a special place for you to feel and be close to your mom! Hang in there one day at a time you got this I know ;]
ReplyDeleteI'm glad the black dog has gone. He's a sneaky bugger, grabs me to as well from time to time.
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Good for you! I am glad that got resolved. You know I often think "passive people" are peace-makers caught off guard.I do think our time comes. I am glad for you that yours did.
ReplyDeleteThat tree and bench memorial sounds lovely. I hope you post photos!
being bullied can really drain a soul... been there, glad it's over!
ReplyDeletethe bench/tree memorial is such a wonderful idea :)
You go girl! One shift leads to another and another. Planting a tree is a beautiful symbolism in honor of your mother. And the bench is a beautiful touch. Hugs sweetie.
ReplyDeleteGood for you for standing strong! People like that need to be taken down a frigging notch! Hopefully she learned something from it, but my experience is that people like that have no clarity of self, so good riddance to them!
ReplyDeleteWhen I read about what your fiancee is doing for you it made me tear up. He sounds like a great guy!