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Urban Word of the Day Indifference; to be used when one simply does not care. This is how I feel today. I have a sore throat. I am still in my pajamas at 4:40 in the afternoon. I have a roast cooking. My mom is still in Palliative care and is not getting any worse. However, there is no quality of life. It is just drudgery. She is hallucinating and saying weird things. Every night she plans to go home in the morning. She gets mad at my dad for not taking her to the eye doctor to get new glasses. She wants to go to the dentist. I slept inside one night (or was it two?) and went back outside again last night. I am going to go get dressed soon and eat dinner and go see my mom. Yeah. Meh. | ||
Being in pajamas at 4:30 in the afternoon should be thought of a a special treat. And you have a roast cooking....in a pajama day that is an amazing feat.
ReplyDeleteIn the last months of my mother-in-laws life, she drew into a reality all her own, or she slipped in between different realities. My husband and his sister were beside themselves and thought that they had to bring her back to this reality, whichever that is.
No mom there is no one sitting there, mom your glasses are fine, no mom, pop i s gone, he's not talking to you. Finally, I had to just say - Listen, you are disturbed by her hallucinations and demands and ramblings that make no sense. You're making it worse by denying everything that is now her world. She, however, is okay in whatever reality she is in. Go with her reality.
Think about it. It makes it easier for everyone, especially your mom.
Oh honey. This, I should hope, is the hardest time of your life. Realize that and respect yourself.
ReplyDeleteYeah. Hard. Double-hard.
ReplyDeleteI've had days feeling like that. The best thing I can do is literally force myself to go out and do something. I'm always glad I did after. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteKeep on placing one foot in front of the other. That's all you can do on days like this.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you.
A very useful word indeed, I wish I knew how to pronounce it. Or does that not matter? Perhaps that's 'meh' too?
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel, when I'm wearing those boots, I say 'sod it' a lot.
Ahhhh, it's already two days past the "Meh," so I have no idea where you're at, but intending that somehow you are managing to get through your days without too much pain and angst. How is your dad faring? Anyhow, thinking of you and your family as the road narrows.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry again for your Mom...Keep trying to sleep
ReplyDeleteLovin this word.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I am at the start of your blog. My mother has been diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. We have no idea how long it will take, or what for the effects will take. It's a waiting game.
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