The Ungrateful Bastard is much improved today. I am using the Vetericyn and it is working like magic. Norbert is is his usual bad mood, not his sick bad mood. He is up and walking around all cranky-like. I think I need to explain why I can't take him to the Vet and needed to do home treatment. The vet would have given me a bill of at least $500.00. Because I stopped working when my mom was dying I have been living on about $800.00 a month. I simply do no have the money. Right now I do not even have money to buy food. I have less than $10.00 in my bank account and that has to last me until the 20th. I knew I would take a huge financial hit by choosing to care for my mom instead of working but I had made a promise to her. Even if I had not promised her I would have done the same thing. I am feeling like crap because I did not take Norbert to the vet. At any rate, he is getting better. As always, we do the best we can. No more about my finances. Things always work out one way or another. I have decided to sell some of my books to get some money so I can buy groceries.
I am going back to Yoga tonight. The instructor is not charging me for the class until I get back on my feet. This type of giving is called Seva, volunteer work offered to God. I am truly grateful.
I am having one of those days where everything is overwhelming me. I can't seem to think past just sitting here. I am staring out the window at the birds in the feeder. I think I need to go back to bed until my mood improves.
PS- Does anyone know why when I hit "publish post" it does not show up in the reading list for hours and hours later? I wrote this post this morning and it is now 5:00 and still not showing in the list.

Sending you lots of love and hopes that the money situation changes for you soon.
ReplyDeleteI believe you made the best decision for you and your Mum xxx
ps: if you're happy with your blog now feel free to remove me from admin
I think the new Google reader is being odd. Not sure why. I am hoping things improve with it.
ReplyDeleteOf course you did the right thing in taking care of your mother and Norbert will probably be fine with your good and attentive treatment.
I am glad you are going back to yoga.
Kindness is what we should all think of. What you did for your mom was amazing.
ReplyDeleteToday I heard two women talking about aging parents. Such complaints I heard and the one was so loud. It was awful. All they wanted was to think of themselves and how they didn't want to deal with any of it. So sad.
You gave much of yourself as a gift to your mom. A final loving gift.
I hope that Norbert gets back to be himself soon.
ReplyDeleteI think you made the best decision for your mom; as a Latina women we are always around the smaller and older members of our families and just like the time that a parents spend with their small children never comes back the same goes with the time we spend with our elderly parents.
And regarding the money; only 1% of us is not broke. The rest of us are dealing with financial struggles as well.
Send you my love and support,
When my sister was dying I quit my job. I had no savings - not a penny. I cashed in my paultry 401k. I had three kids. Probably not too responsible maybe.
ReplyDeleteBut somethings happen once - only once.
It's terrifying to have no money for food or rent or whatever until you get back on your feet. Even if I could have imagined how hard it would be after - no job, no money and all that grief - I would make the same choice. Priceless.
Firstly I love the new blog, it looks amazing and I am loving the words you've chosen in your header. Just perfect. Great work Cat.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear Norbert is feeling a little more like himself and that you are taking yourself back to Yoga. How great that the instructor is doing this. I haven't heard of the word Seva before. Sounds like just what you need with the situation you are facing...no it won't put food on the table but it will take care of your soul. How are you managing? Have you a good support network with friends and family? I can't imagine how you must feel. I've been without money to last until payday before but due to my own foolishness nothing else.
Did you get your hair cut?
A cool new look for your blog... i like it...
ReplyDeleteAs for the decision you made to take care of your mother... you did the right thing... knowing you, you would not have had it any different and the best person to take care of her is the one who holds her close to her heart... it took a lot of your time and energy but those extra moments you spent with her made a difference to the both of you... you are a wonderful giving person.
as for Norbert... I am glad to hear he is feeling better... again, you caring for him is what he needs... the best kind of tender love and care...
sending you lots of love and hugs
I hope you feel better! My post is published instantly, so I do not know why??
ReplyDeleteI am so glad Norbert is doing better! I know it is so hard to make it financially these days but you did an amazing thing right from the heart. We are as tight as a person can get these days as well and my little Herger has a bite on his paw. I can't afford a vet right now so I am going to try to find this Vetericyn you mentioned. Thank you for the tip.
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