Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Falling Asleep in Yoga

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This week I have been training at my new job.  I am really tired, so tired that I feel asleep in yoga during Shivasana.  I have not been reading blogs but I hope to get caught up this weekend.  Not much crying this week but I did cry today when I used my cell phone to call my dad and I scrolled to, "Mom and Dad" on my phone book.  I cried because my mom will never be answering the phone again.  Never.  I still can't realize "forever".  Forever makes me so sad and feel so desperate.  
I don't have much to say.  I need a hot bath and a hot chocolate and bed.  I have been so cold. I can't get warm.  I miss my mom.  I miss my mom. I miss my mom. I am lonely for her. 

9 comments :

  1. TaboulehNovember 30, 2011

    warm warm hugs to you Barbara. Wish I could do it in person.

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  2. UnknownNovember 30, 2011

    Hunny, you have NO idea how much I just want to give you a great big hug. Following your journey for so long, I can't pretend to understand your pain, but I so wish I could take some of it away from you. Hugs xxx

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  3. Lorna A.December 01, 2011

    I've been very lax in keeping up with my blog reading too, so I'm sorry I haven't commented recently. Like Ms Kate I only wish I could take away some of your pain,especially at what always seems to be the most difficult time of year. Hugs x x

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  4. Ms. MoonDecember 01, 2011

    She would still be with you if she could.
    Stay warm, dear.

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  5. PeachesDecember 01, 2011

    When you can never do what you really want to can be painful. I still want to call my mom, but I know she'll never answer.

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  6. ShellyDecember 01, 2011

    big warm hugs.... you are so special.. and you are loved!

    <3

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  7. JudeDecember 01, 2011

    We lost our Paw exactly one year ago today. Paw wasn't just a father-in-law, he was Paw. I grew up with Paw. He was the dad who would pick us kids up from church. When I was dating his son, he was the dad who came and pulled us out of the mud when we got stuck "parking." When we had our son, he came and walked the crying baby when I'd had enough. When he got old and told the same story over and over I listened like I had just heard it for the first time. I miss Paw badly. It's been a year today and I am sad. I have cried, but I have laughed too. It may be too soon, but one day you will suddenly remember something about your mother and find yourself laughing.

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  8. EllenDecember 01, 2011

    If you have to fall asleep somewhere in public then at Yoga in Shivasana is perfectly fine.

    Keep the mom and dad on the cell phone also...don't change it.

    Hugs to you Barbara....

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  9. SECRET PEPPER PERSON:December 28, 2011

    I felt exactly this way regarding the phone when my mom died. Had a flashback reading this!

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