Even though I have been doing nothing I am tired and anxious. My medication for Zoloft went up yesterday so that is probably the reason I am tired. The anxiety? I have no idea what is causing it. If depression is a Black Dog I wonder what anxiety is? It would likely be called "looking-into-the-sun-while-spinning-in-circles-just-after-being-punched-in-the-stomach-while-being-choked".
It is snowing here again. The batch from last week had started to melt but there is still at least a foot in our yard. The sides of the roads are several feet high in most areas. As usual, the weather network has no idea how much we are going to get. Different sites say different things. One site says 25 cm (about 10 inches), the other says 5 cm. (about 2 inches). Still another site says there will only be freezing rain. Whatever it is, I have had enough. My skin is so dry! How do all of you that live in the rest of the country do it? What do you do about the dry skin?
The part of the basement that had the flood is now completely torn apart and today they started putting back together what was ripped out. It was worse than we initially thought and the floor needed to be ripped out as well. It will be nice to have everything back in place. It could have been so much worse. For that I am grateful.
It was my son's 18th birthday this week and for the first time he chose to not spend it with family. *birdie's bottom lip trembles* He went to a friend's house where her mom was having a bunch of other kids over and she made him cupcakes in the shape of a bowtie. My son loves bowties because "bowties are cool". I will send you a Canadian penny (you pay the postage) if you know where the phrase bowties are cool comes from. (No Googling!) At any rate, I keep asking how my first born got to be 18. He is an adult now. I can't say that it doesn't being some sadness. I can still feel him as he was put in my arms the first time. I can still see his two year old chubby cheeks as we played hide and go seek. My little man is not little anymore. He towers over me at close to 6-feet tall. He is such a good boy (man!). He has a gentle heart and has never given me a moment of trouble. He is sensible, caring and adaptable. He goes out of his way to be help others and the pain of others affects him deeply. Like me (also a Pisces), he can be lazy at times! He can spend the day doing nothing and be quite content with that. At the same time (as with me) we are never bored and really enjoy our own company.
Well, it is time to make some dinner. (Linda - I am making Jambalaya.)
I am so sorry that the anxiety hag is back with you.
ReplyDeleteAnd have no idea where bow-ties are cool comes from. I hope you are going to tell us.
Moisturizing is the only defence we poor dried-out Canucks have, LOL! I swear by Jergens Lotion myself. Original cherry-almond scent.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your son -- now he's legal! He can vote and everything -- I'm sure that will be a big thrill for him, eh?
O dear.. my girlfriend has bad anxiety and panic attacks, but whenever she tries to analyse it, she can't think of a cause either. I think that does make it more challenging to overcome in a way, but hey, isn't it great that you can't think of anything to be anxious about? Hang in there, dear friend! And happy birthday to your son :)
ReplyDeleteAww.. I know what its like when they decide they want to spend their birthday with friends for the 1st time.. yikes.. all grow'd up
ReplyDeleteHappy B'day to him
Do you get Cocoa butter? it's very rich..
Ugh.. roll on summer - had enough of this cold already.
Fezes are cool too. And stetsons. (I live with a geek.....)
ReplyDeleteHave you talked to your doctor about the type of anti-depressant you are on? Some of them cause anxiety. Monitor it over the next couple of weeks since your dose went up. Keep a record. You might need them to change your meds,
Take care, x
Oh, Birdie. I wish you could find the relief I have found. I simply feel reborn.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your dear, good son and happy birth day to his dear, good mama.
Your son sounds like a fine young man. God Bless him.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about that Monster called Anxiety. Wish I could take it away and put it behind bars.
I use organic jojoba oil Desert Essence. It's great for your hair, scalp, and skin. At night I use shea cocoa butter for my arms, elbows, knees, and legs, but not the face. Both help my skin and hair stay hydrated.
ReplyDeleteHappy 18th Birthday to your sweet son. I hope your anxiety goes away soon.
Well, the whole Pisces thing that you mentioned in your comment to me and then again here....YES! I have never even thought about astrological signs, I didn't even know my girl was a Pisces! But everything you said is SO true about her as well. She loves to be at home and prefers small simple, quiet gatherings of her closest friends. Is perfectly happy and content to be at home all day and will putter around and never complains of being bored. And yes, I have ever thought the 'L' word in regards to my sweet thing. lol
ReplyDeleteAnyway....you got my curiosity up so I will need to read more!
I hope that you will adjust quickly to increased dose of your antidepressant. I use avocado oil for my hands which get very very dry. I put it on straight at night and just rub it in really well or I mix it into my lotion and put it all over....my legs, my arms, my back. Its wonderful stuff. :o)
Aveeno. Aveeno. Aveeno. I've been supplementing it with Arbonne lotion too, which ain't no Aveeno, despite it's price tag! The air is so dry here, you can feel the moisture leave your body.
ReplyDeleteAnxiety is misplaced emotion. For me, it's usually fear, excitement or unspoken anger that my mind somehow mislabels and misrepresents. Usually, I stop myself and say "okay, what is it I'm really feeling..." Seriously, get yourself the Anxiety and Phobia workbook on amazon, it's amazing for helping you figure yourself out.
Weather. I don't even want to hear about it anymore. So tired of the deep freeze, it's not even funny.
It sounds to me that you can stand proud and remind yourself that you did a great job raising that boy. That's truly one of life's finest accomplishments. Happy Birthday to your boy. I know the heart tug of realizing that they're all grown up. Cue Neil Young's "My Boy."
ReplyDeleteThat's so sweet. Do you feel pride, though that you've raised a good dude and a fan of Doctor Who (Yeah, of course I know where "Bowties are cool" comes from).
ReplyDeleteI'd hate to do this to you, but for the first time I noticed in your banner that you have "Resilent" when I think, not sure, maybe I'm wrong, you mean"Resilient"?
We use lotions by the gallon over here. Dry skin is a real problem, and so is static hair! Whenever I pet one of my cats, they get an electrical zap, and it freaks them out. UGH...winter...
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your son! Time just flies, doesn't it? My older daughter is going to be 22 in June. 22!! When did that happen??
I hope the jambalaya has you feeling better!
ReplyDeleteThis interminable winter is doing a number on a lot of us. Even the dogs. I took mine out today, and they scampered around the park to smell the leaves at the base of trees--anything to deal with something that was not snow! Hang in there!
So your son is a fan of Matt Smith as Dr Who? Anxiety sucks. If it's a color, it's like bright screaming neon pink.
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