We spent time in the yard yesterday. I planted a few bulbs that were given to me in a flower basket for my birthday. I also loaded bricks into a wheelbarrow and brought them to the front yard because we are going to make a raised bed. After that I cut down two shrubs that are old and dying. I am not sure what to put in the empty spaces but something with colour. 

This morning I got my haircut and I am so glad I did! It is short now, falling just above my shoulders. It is so nice to be able to run my fingers through it. I don't know why I let it get so long. It looked horrible.  Now I can get up in the morning and just brush it and tuck it behind my ears. 

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My husband and I went for a walk through the park this afternoon and pondered what we are going to put in our yard. The very back of our yard doesn't get a lot of sun and it very wet in the winter so we are thinking of sword ferns and salal. In the new front bed it gets hot but we don't want to water so we are thinking for some ornamental grasses. I love one called 'Fireworks'. Isn't it pretty?

We are definitely enjoying Spring here on this island. Though the rain will continue and we will have some cool nights it is getting a little warmer each week. Some of the trees have little buds growing. And oh, it is making me so glad.

That said, I still think my medication needs to be bumped up a little. Mornings are still really difficult with lots of anxiety. The days and nights are better but I am not getting out of bed until late morning. I know I could be feeling better. One thing I have to admit to myself that my depression really is a chemical imbalance. I am happy with who I am and the life I live. When I get depressed I don't even know why I am depressed. While counselling and support group have helped me feel less alone and taught me better ways of coping, nothing has helped like medication to keep my plunging into despair. I come by it honestly as my mother, both grandmothers and various cousins struggle with depression. Sadly, most of my cousins self-medicate with alcohol, illegal drugs or food. I know when I go into a depression the depressed me is not who I am. Yes, I struggle with life. I get overwhelmed easily and really need to watch that I practise self-care but depression is something else all together. 

That is it for today. We are having steak on the BBQ and I made fresh salsa.