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I was thinking today about a friend that committed suicide 23 years ago. I would have thought after 23 years I would be able to accept his death but it still hurts just as much as it ever did. He has missed out on so much, a whole life really. I saw him the night before he put a gun in his mouth. And no, I do not blame myself at all but I often wonder.
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life.
Why do car dealerships call their cars the "all-new Toyota" or the "all-new Chrysler"? As opposed to what? A 7/8-new Toyota?
On the radio today they announced a contest to win tickets to see Celine Dion. I can't think of a worse concert.
Why do I know all the words to the song, "Tainted Love"? Why?
I picked up this book at the library today. It should be an interesting read. Ever since I found out that my great, great grandfather lived this workhouse when he was 15 I have been trying to learn as much as possible about them. There are very few written accounts by workhouse inmates and what it was like to live in one.
And that is shit I have pondered today.
"Shit I Have Pondered Today" is a good blog theme. I frequently do that but I have never called it that.
ReplyDeleteI hope you like the book.
How terrible for your friend. My husband often asks those same questions with regard to his own grade school friend who killed herself almost 15 years ago. He would say, wonderingly, how it was that at the funeral her parents were asking him and her other friends if they knew why she did it; it seemed to indicate that she must have felt she had no one close to turn to. Hope you are having a great week; thinking uneventful s**t is nice.
ReplyDeleteSadly far too many women look at the 70 pound, bulimic models and imagine that is beauty - and they should look that way. Whatever it costs.
ReplyDeleteSuicide prevention is, as you know, a cause dear to my heart. And some calls I have taken will haunt me for all time.
As I suspect that book would do.
You pondered some heavy shit today.
I wonder who buys that shit as well.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about your friend - but one thing I know having been there is that if someone is determined, you can't stop them. You just want the pain to go away and you feel like it never will.
I can't think of a worse concert either. I can't stand Celine Dion and I hated Paris too. Am I the only person that hates Paris? Maybe it's changed, but I wasn't impressed when I went. The streets were full of dog shit, and the French hate Brits. :D
ReplyDeleteI can't think of a worse concert either. I can't stand Celine Dion and I hated Paris too. Am I the only person that hates Paris? Maybe it's changed, but I wasn't impressed when I went. The streets were full of dog shit, and the French hate Brits. :D
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ReplyDeleteHow To Save a Life is a great song, as is Tainted Love, for totally different reasons.
ReplyDeleteAll-new is such a hook to get suckers like us to just buy, buy, buy.
I'm thinking a branch of my tree also came out of the famine, so that seems like it would be a good read.
It's 3 am. I'm awake with swirly thoughts too.
Let us know what you learn about the workhouses. It seems they have been making the news lately and were unbelievably terrible experiences.
ReplyDeleteThe loss of someone by suicide is extremely difficult. I don't think the grief, confusion, and even guilt, ever truly goes away. I've lost someone very close to me that way, and still have a hard time with it years later. Sorry about your friend. I truly understand how you feel.
ReplyDeleteI can see "Shit I Have Pondered Today" becoming a regular blog feature! Funny how our minds work, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteThe awful truth about those magazine people is that they are airbrushed and photo shopped to death to look that good. Nobody is that perfect without being faked.
ReplyDeleteOn the "New Car" shpeel. They like to repeat that "New Car" crap so you will come in to buy that new car only to be steered towards a used car if your credit sucks.
So sorry about your friend, but don't let that ol' Black Dog in the house when you think about thinks like that.
Oh, Pat Coogan's The Famine Plot will be a book that I will try to find at my library. I see on its cover that it is about Ireland's greatest tragedy -- my paternal ancestors lived in Ireland. Thanks for mentioning this book birdie -- barbara
ReplyDeleteThere's a workhouse a few miles from us that you can visit. I went a couple of years ago and was deeply moved by it. There are books that record the stories. You might like to see this one: http://astore.amazon.co.uk/the_workhouse-21/detail/0752467492
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ReplyDeleteI really like how your mind works and admire that you post about it..
in fact, I always enjoy my visits to your blog. Its one of the few places on the internet where I know I'll read the Truth without any bs.
I followed Annie over here. She always knows the best folks.
Sonny
To place such a title in the center of a magazine is insane... wake up slim? ... really? is that what is the most important thing in life? boggles my mind...
ReplyDeleteI don't even know what a workhouse is...and after reading the link still not sure. This book will go on order list at the library...
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