Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Day 23...So tired

Last night I went to bed tired and woke up even more tired. How is that possible? I got up and was just dragging so had a nap that did nothing to make me feel any better. I haven't even done anything today but my body feels like it has been drained of anything good. My head is in a fog. Everything feels heavy. My heart is missing beats and everything is achy. And of course I am teary and that evil Black Dog of Depression is inside the house. He is sitting on my lap. I hate him. 

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I just wish I had more support for days like these. My husband has barely talked to me and won't when I get like this. He doesn't understand how much worse it makes it. He gets angry when I am down. I used to try to talk to him but have sort of given up on that because he just gets angrier. When I am fine, he is fine. 

 Seriously, right now my chest hurts so much I feel like I am having a heart attack. The tears running down my cheeks tell me otherwise. Not a heart attack, just anxiety and depression. 

 I saw my Naturopath today and it is nice to have someone understand and not think I am just a pain in the ass or making this up. It turns out my Vitamin D and iron and really, really low but she thinks stress is causing the majority of my problems.

 Anyway, I have nothing else to say. So very tired. 

5 comments :

  1. Elephant's ChildAugust 20, 2013

    Aaaargh. Fatigue makes everything harder. And gives the scummy black dog (there is a reason I prefer cats) a way in as well.
    Sending hugs.

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  2. Debra She Who SeeksAugust 20, 2013

    Any depression support groups in your area? Maybe they could be a source of support.

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  3. KimAugust 20, 2013

    That black dog is really getting around. I think he's got a leash on me these days. I hope you get some energy and some rest. I wish you all the best.

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  4. Riot KittyAugust 20, 2013

    I was going to suggest support groups also. If you have a hard time getting out the door, there are inline groups too. Post on my blog if you'd like me to help with tracking things down. Things get better, I promise.

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  5. AnonymousAugust 21, 2013

    Low iron can seriously make a person feel like epic shit. Get those levels up! Take it on an empty stomach with vitamin C for better absorption.
    I was thinking of you calling it the black dog yesterday while I was out walking my black dog. She makes me nothing but happy. Maybe I should loan her to you? :)

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