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| This picture is completely unrelated to post. It is a deer that was in our yard a few weeks ago. |
I think the new antidepressants I am on are starting to work but now I just feel numbness. It feels like there is a huge hole where my heart used to be. I am reading some books on grief that I don't hate and want to throw across the room. They help because I read and feel reassured that
I am considering getting my accreditation on Palliative care. The courses are expensive but this is something I really want to do to better care for the people I look after. I need to make a decision in the next few days. If I decide that I want to do it later the course are ongoing. They are also online so that makes it much easier.
I have to be up in an hour so I am going to go back and dive beneath my blankets.
Yes, your feelings are normal and you're not alone! Keep doing what you're doing and I'm certain healing will come. That deer is amazing. What a sight to see in your backyard.
ReplyDeleteYou're actually doing fine - but I know from bitter experience that it won't feel that way. You still communicate with us out here in Blogland and you're talking about how you feel and you are considering plans for the future. This is all very positive, believe it or not.
ReplyDeleteI think the accreditation sounds like a good idea if you can afford it.
"The only cure for sadness is to learn something." T H White
Here's me saying- I love and admire you and that one day you are going to look back and be amazed at all of your growth and endurance and strength.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I'm feeling pretty blink, blink, blink, blink, blink, too. Life is too short to feel wrong about blink, blink, blink... It's your blink, blink, blink, blink, blink moment; own it. it's gonna make you stronger.
ReplyDeleteYou are writing and you are reaching. My heart goes out to you. Stay with us!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful and peaceful picture of the deer in your yard! And your shawl sounds so warm and lovely too.
ReplyDeleteI keep you in my prayers every day.