My mom continues to get closer to death. Incoherent. Down to just sips and mouth care. We are hoping to have her moved to the Palliative unit tomorrow. My city has a state of the art Palliative department with fully private rooms. Each unit has a TV, CD player with any type of music you can think of. There are beds for family too. Comfort of the patient is priority and medication for pain management is never refused. Second priority is care and support for the family. It is a good place to die. If that is what you are doing.
I bought a new dress for my mom's service today. She does not want a funeral so we are having a celebration of life. It is a nice dress.
And I have a weird fucking rash on my girly parts. Too much information? Probably but it hurts damn it! My fiance thinks it is a heat rash but think it is stressed induced. It makes me grateful for fans and corn starch.
I have been sleeping outside for a week now because I don't seem to have really bad panic attacks when I am out there. I still have nightmares but they are not terrible and scary. Just sad.
We've been away and I've missed so much. :-(
ReplyDeleteI don't have anything useful to say, but send as many virtual hugs as you can cope with (I squeeze really hard when I hug.)
Ok, I may be a little stupid right now, but you're ok. You are suffering, confused and stressed out. And the rash might just be because of all that occurring in your life right now.
ReplyDeleteWash your girly parts with water and tea-tree essencial oil (three drops are enough) and try to relax (if you can get anything that might help you do this, do it! Even if illegal, you are more needed now than the cops, lol!)
Love
Isa
I don't have anything useful to say either except to send lots of hugs and hope everything goes as well as possible...and that you get better soon. Too much stress! Stupid cancer.
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hard to buy a dress for suh an ocassion. i mean the act of it not the choice of dress.
ReplyDeletegirly parts are certainly stress - it's about losing some of the feminine. your whole body is crying and trying to cope.
love to you.
I sat and wrote a eulogy beside my Mother's bed, words and tears and good memories all intermingled, with her favorite Sinatra playing for her.
ReplyDeleteOn a practical note: Benadryl will stop itching and help you sleep. There are great anti-itch/inflammation cortisone ointments available over the counter. Are you drinking enough water?
Barbara -- Your mother is in the right place surrounded by love.
ReplyDeleteYou made such a nice comment on my post about immortality. I had included a few words from Edward Abbey on this post. You mentioned green burials. Edward Abbey requested a green burial although they were illegal where he lived. But his friends and family found a place in the wild and when he died they took him there and buried him, sans coffin. Thought you might like this extra bit about Abbey.
I'm sending some more loving thoughts to you.
ReplyDeleteSending warm, supportive hugs your way.
ReplyDeletei'm so sorry that you are having to go thru this part of the life cycle...
ReplyDeletecelebrations of life are always so nice and help to create soothing memories...
you are in my prayers
What a hard, hard journey you are on. THIS is truly life, which is ironic. Believe it or not, there will be unexpected blessings. I promise you.
ReplyDeletei know this is hard for you.. i am so sorry you are having to go thru all of this. i like the idea of a celebration of life. that is just a beautiful thought.
ReplyDeleteyou are loved very much.. you are in my thoughts!
hugs and love! here if you need me, always.
A celebration of life is a good way to look at it. My thoughts are with your family.
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