It is 7:15 a.m. and I am getting ready to go home and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep. I agreed to work another night shift because money is as always, tight. And maybe it is my way of escaping right now.
So, yes. Grand-baby is here but already the problems have started and I just do not have the time or the energy to write it all here. If I wrote for the next hour I would not get it all down. My husband is having chest pains and I am walking around with a sick feeling in my stomach. At times I am shaking. Understand, that I am not trying to be cryptic. It is just that I don't know where to start. It is the kind of stuff that needs to be shared over a cup of coffee (with Baileys) with the understanding that right now there are no answers. There is a lot of sighing involved. The space between my eyebrows is constantly pulled together in a frown. I wish my mom was here. She would know what to do. She would. My mom was wise. So, wise.
To add to it all, I need to make some major decisions about my kids education. They are 15 & 17 and the education they are currently receiving is not working for them anymore. It will all work out but it is causing me much stress. Actually, I don't know if it will work out. It seems each decision could be the wrong decision.
And that is my week. Too tired to blog. Working and working. Little wee babies who have no choices and grandparents whose hands are tied.
Too tired to proofread this post. Sorry for not reading and commenting on your blogs.
Sometimes we just have to stop and sigh! You can only do so much - try not to take on the world today. Talk to your kids about school and agree on something practical that works for everyone. You won't ruin their lives! Hugs to you and yours.
ReplyDeleteThis was destined to be difficult, so pace yourself and allow that you're doing what you can. Don't break your spirit on things that are impossible to change. Please try to recognize the difference.
ReplyDeleteAs to the education of teenagers, we lived in a sought after school district but it was not a good fit for my daughter. We found a program through the local community college that has high school students taking college classes for credit on both ends, and they are officially still in high school and can graduate with their friends. I think it was called Middle College. The mentors were great, they helped the students understand that they were working for their own futures, rather than the negative crap at school where all they heard was "If you don't get certain grades, you won't get into college". The kids were also in classes with adults and people from much more varied backgrounds who were examples as they wanted to be there.
Hang in there, Birdie! Sending you all hugs and best wishes.
ReplyDeleteI have no words. Know that I'm keeping you all in my thoughts...
ReplyDeletethings have a way of working out just how they're supposed to. It's the journey that sucks.
I have a huge bottle of Baileys on the counter, get your ass over here! Lol!
ReplyDeleteTry to relax, I know things are crazy stressful. Fretting won't make a lick of difference though, so you may as well set it down. Do what you can, don't do what you can't do.
Go outside and smell a flower or something, maybe the answers will be clearer then.
Sometimes life is a game I just don't want to play. I hope that some of your stresses start to ease off. It is very, very hard when you know that there is nothing that can make things 'all better'. Cyber hugs. Be kind to yourself.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to say other than take a deep breath and hang in there! I hope that things get ironed out sooner rather than later --- at least for that wee one's sake.
ReplyDeleteHang in there - this grandbaby is lucky to have you and your husband in the picture. I know it's not going to be easy, but your presence in her life will give her a much better shot at a happy outcome.
ReplyDeleteWe should chat...
ReplyDeleteAnd perhaps one day we will...
I know I could help you thru this..
I am also very wise...
Cheers!
Linda :o)
Birdie, call in the your mom wise energy and maybe some solutions were come up.
ReplyDeleteBut most of all take time to take care of you in order to have the strength to help the rest of your family.
Birdie,
ReplyDeleteSometimes we just need to step out of our comfort zone, open the front door and scream as loud as you can...it might make the neighbors call the police, but you'll feel better.
I have some Jersey Devil Red... and OH, how good that will make you feel. Too bad we live so far away. *sigh*
ReplyDeleteHang in, dear one. Take things a day at a time.. heck, an hour at a time if need be.
the post is is ok - no need to edit.
ReplyDeletecongrats on the birth of the grandchild.
wishing wellness... for all.
Birdie, things will work themselves out. Just hang in there.
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