Yippee!

See my little girl up on my ticker?  She is moving because I weighed in tonight and lost 3 pounds!  And if anyone says it is "water weight" you are going to get a smack because I planned my meals ahead this week and made several different healthier choices.  Three pounds that I worked for!  I will say I made way too much minestrone soup.  I still have half a pot left.  I am going to freeze the rest tomorrow.
Another thing I did this week is track every single thing I ate.  I am going to go about this weight loss by tracking calories but also being aware of my fat intake, carbs and protein.  I am using Spark People to track my intake and exercise as well as this. I do not like the word diet but for all intents and purposes that is what it is.  I am trying to change my diet to a healthier one.  Last week while I was tracking my food I realized how often I eat emotionally. Apparently I sit on the couch for a lot of my meals. When I am at work I look forward to eating as a way of breaking up the night.  I also eat to help myself cope with grief.  Even though I am not writing about it much I am still having a lot of issues around the death of my mom.  It is so much more than just her being dead and gone from this world.  Her dying turned my entire belief system on its ear.  The God who I thought I knew is no longer.  It is taking a long time to right things and since I don't have a strong Cornerstone I am turning to food. My biggest hurdle with this journey will be so much more than getting fit or thin.  It will be about diving deep to control my addiction to food. Food is what I use to make me feel better and that needs to change. The more mindful I become of why, when, how and what I eat the closer I will get to my goal.  
Well, my intention was not to write all this but there it is anyway.