I'm tired, boss. Tired of being on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain.I'm tired of never having a buddy to be with. To tell me where we's going to, coming from or why. Mostly, I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world every day. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head, all the time. Can you understand? When I first heard these lines I thought someone must have somehow got into my head. It came as a shock to know others feel this way. When I look around everyone seems to be "getting it" and are quite okay with the chaos in the world. To me, it feel like we have been dropped off here and forgotten. We hear that there is a god that loves us but it doesn't feel that way to me. I feel alone most of the time. My god does not give me direction or speak into my life. He is very, very, very quiet. So quiet that I doubt his/her existence. I want a "buddy to be with to tell me where we is coming from and where we is going to and why". I am tired of people being ugly to each other and all the pain in the world. It is just too much for me. It is indeed, like pieces of glass in my head. Can you understand? For some reason, I think you do.
(And why can't I format this post!?)
I am so sorry. This is a post, I can't understand - the text runs off the page and I can only read a few words of each line.
ReplyDeleteI was thrilled to see a post, because I have been thinking of you and am now very, very frustrated.
Sometimes God does seem very very quiet, but I do believe he is there for you.
ReplyDeleteI really hope things improve, and you are able to see a light at the end of the tunnel. I've been thinking about you and your family.
well, first of all I am sending you and your husband a great huge hug, which will go on for as long as you need to know that you are not alone.. we are here, all of us rooting for you..
ReplyDeletethese days must be very tiring and anxious for you, and that girl is on a road which seems very rocky at the moment, as she is also dealing with the rush of hormones all over the place.. and to get back to mother, is trying to make sense of it all.. despite the fact that her mother was so awful to her...
but behind all that you are offering is a very damaged girl, and I know that your hearts find it hard to understand... but these roads which our kids take do not always run parallel to ours, so you have to try and bite the bullet and just hope it all turns out ok... meanwhile that poor h usband of yours is such a state, he needs to see the doc for the anxiety which you both have,so you too maybe..... heart pains are not good, but its because this level of unhappiness is unknown... so my big hugs will be there first thing in the morning, and all day just to make you feel that someone out here in the ether is thinking of you both and being as much of a support as one can do over the web.. God is listening, just he thinks you will manage .. if you give it all you can, it will work out ok... hugs and hugs and hugs from across the pond, thinking very much of you all, janzi
I do not know why those words are underlined, I did not do it!!! janzi
ReplyDeleteAll of us are just fools floating along in the sea of life. Some days we get it, some days we flail. It's okay,
ReplyDeleteWhen we're coping and have clarity, all is right in the world. Other times, we're just so not. The trick is to just hang onto your boogie board and ride it out. All waves come to the shore eventually.